teaching – Corban's Cabinet of Curiosities

You want a no-risk guarantee before you take a chance
You wanna know how the song will end before you start to dance
Well I can’t foretell the future, but my heart clearly sees
Your hand in mine for a long, long time if you could just believe
And take a leap of faith, cast away your doubt
Darling come what may, we can work it out
A love that’s real will always find a way
If you’ll trust in me like I trust in you
There’s no rain or fire that we can’t go through
The first step’s always the hardest one to take
It’s a leap of faith
I understand all your doubts and fears of laying your heart on the line
But aren’t you afraid of just throwing away a love like yours and mine
I know your heart’s been broken, you’ve been let down before
Though the stakes are high, give it one more try, this time you can be sure

Hi, I am that precious thing you thought you lost 7 months ago, that just turned up in your kitchen drawer, Corban

It has been a long time since I have felt like I wanted to make a blog post, you know how life changes and thing that were once integral to you are just not important any more. There have been some major shifts in my Secondlife over the last couple of months, from saying goodbye to those who were once close, to getting engaged, moving home twice and finding joy in family life.
I spent a good chunk of my secondlife searching for a place to fit, I spent a lot of it alone but eventually found my place and it is with my beautiful fiancé Carter, who I get to marry in 11 days time!!! Also with my beautiful children Mercedes, Dean and Eric and their flip sides, Tyson, Amore and Noiree.
It takes a lot of faith to take that leap, and give the most hidden and locked away parts of you to others, especially in Secondlife. We have all been burned here in some form, unless you joined in the last month it may not have found you yet, but rest assured in life, if you care for people eventually you will be hurt. Does this mean we should close ourselves off and live a lonely existence with, shut up living in fear of the hurt and losing out on all of those happy amazing moments. Hell fucking no! I lived like that for a long time and in the last few months I have laughed so hard I have been left winded with tears streaming down my face and covered in snot, I have been loved more than I ever thought possible. I wake up every day with a smile on my face because I get to see him, and we get to spend time with our amazing children.
I actually got the chance last night to teach our youngest son, Eric. The very fundamentals of what I am talking about today… Trust, taking that leap of faith and knowing that you will be caught, sometimes you might land on your ass… and yes it might hurt but that moment when someone catches you is such a blissful moment that the others just pale in comparison. I was teaching our little Frogman to swim, Myself and my two handsome boys Dean and Eric had been hanging in the pool, as the day had been a scorcher and we all needed time to cool off. It was the day after Fathers Day and as the tadpole prince of the family I thought it was about time he got his water legs. We started off with some easy floating, and then teaching him how to kick his little legs and stay afloat, finally leading to me putting him on the edge of the pool and stepping back a few paces, telling him to trust Papa and jump into my arms. He was a little cautious at first but he took a deep breath and puffed his cheek, smiled at me and then jumped right off the side of the pool in such a blissfully carefree and trusting manner, into my arms where he was promptly spun around and told how amazing he was and what a good job he had done!
You don’t need to have kids, love, a family to trust and open up to people… so find your groove, but remember if you don’t open up to others, they will not return that greatness.

Lets see what I have on today huh 😛